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the wallflower
Wallflower (wall·flow·er)
Definition
- One who does not participate in the activity at a social event because of shyness or unpopularity.
- A lady at a ball, who, either from choice, or because not asked to dance, remains a spectator.
As the term suggests, I shy away from a lot of things, parties and balls/dances being top 1 and top 2 respectively.
I'm a small girl you won't probably notice in a crowd. On top of that, I'm a natural klutz, the holder of a seemingly record-breaking list of misplaced items, an amateur anything, and an over-thinker who oftentimes lets her head rule her heart.
I'm still normal okay, don't get me wrong. haha... I'm a kid at heart who is easily pleased with simple things. One who carries a pinch of optimism, a tinkling of charm, and loads of laughs. I'm still trying to find my place in this vast expanse, but I'm having tons of fun along the way.
I'll find that light someday, I'm sure! But for now, I'll slow things down a bit and enjoy the ride.
My life's not the most spectacular thing that you'll come across, but it's worth a look :)
my a-z
A aqua
B baking, books, broadway
C Canon 50D
D dancing, David Archuleta, DLSU, doodles, DS Lite
E E71, elephants
F fencing (foil), Filipina, Freeway
G GLEEk
H HTML/CSS
I -
J June 10
K Kamiseta, Kostka QC
L Latter-day Saint (Mormon), lime green
M Malteasers
N Nancy Drew, necklaces
O OC
P pasta, piano, Psychology major
Q Quezon City
R -
S See's Rum Nougat, shrimp, singing (theatrical amateur), single, sour candies, spicy food, Stitch
T taekwondo black belt, traveling, Trumpets Playshopper, turtles
U -
V -
W Walt Disney, Warheads, Wicked (the musical), white thick-rimmed glasses
X
Y -
Z Zours
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Friday, February 22, 2008, 11:56 AM
I woke up because of a really bad nightmare. I'd rather not go into detail of how this went, but MY MARCH 16, 2007 ENTRY would give you some idea. In just a few more weeks, it'll be a year since my... Err... Let's just say my permanent leave from TLS. Since March 16 last year, I've been struggling to get over what happened to me during this horrible day. Turns out, I haven't gotten over it 100%. You see, March 16, 2007 has left an ugly scar on my heart. I don't think there'd be another remedy for this, except maybe talking to the guy involved in this. Sure, it's been all smiles for me after this unfortunate day, but I can't help but feel the need to reconcile with the person involved. Even just a little "hi" would do. Otherwise, I might have to live with this hole forever - right next to the one caused by my evil (I'm NOT exaggerating) yaya whose very thought still frightens me until now. *sobs* Tama na. March 8, 2007 click HERE to reminisce
Two dates to remember - July 20 and March 8. July 20 is my friendship day with Alliv, and March 8 with Arik. After March 16, I'm gonna treat you guys somewhere. With everything we've gone through, I know our friendship could only get stronger until the very end. I'm really blessed to have you in my life. I love you both so much! *hugs*
Anyway, recruitment for the DLSU Fencing Team was this week. We had a booth in SJ walk where we displayed fencing gear, promoted our team, sold our spare shirts, and just hung-out in between classes. Ogge and David also gave a demo of a Sabre match. David won, I think.
As for those who decided to try out, thanks for coming! There were a lot who came to the try-outs and even familiar faces who took fencing as their LEAP the previous week. I do hope they continue training. The more the merrier!
Labels: friends, mark my heart
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Jenn A.
Saturday, February 16, 2008, 11:55 PM
For the longest time, I've believed Valentine's Day to be boycott-worthy. I've always had something unexplainable against this day. No, it was never bitterness over not having someone to hold my hand and be all cheesy with me, if that's what you're thinking. It's not that I don't think greetings and hugs from dear friends and isn't enough either. I guess it's Valentine-ness is enough reason for me to roll my eyes about anything that has to do with this dreaded day.
Things were different this Valentine's though. The winds of change were strong enough to turn my head upside down. After years of hating Valentine's Day, I finally learned to appreciate it.
The night before Valentine's Day, Cliff, David, Migs, Ogge, and I went to Dangwa (it's where you can get beautiful flowers and arrangements done at really low prices) to buy flowers for their loves. I had fun seeing all the pretty flowers in Dangwa. I bought a balloon for myself to remind me of my visit there. I realized something too - guys really would do crazy things for the girls they love. Who would go all the way to Dangwa just to get their girl flowers, spending whatever they have to offer to her? Aww... :)
I spent the night with David and Migs when we got back to Taft. I dropped by the dorm and said I wouldn't be sleeping there and put the flowers Cliff had for Kathy (more about his later) in my room and left. I stayed over Migs' place and watched Harry Potter 4 'til I fell asleep (Cedric Diggory still takes my breath away. heehee). When I woke up, they brought me back to my dorm and I got roses from two of my favorite boys ever. I love you guys! :)
I immediately went to check on Cliff's bouquet. They looked more beautiful when I saw them - the buds had already opened up. The flowers were lovely! Kathy would love them! Sobrang kinikilig ako para sa kanila.
I met up with him in G210 and handed him the flowers. He asked me to stay because he was nervous. haha! A few days before Valentine's, he signed-up for the harana thing by the Chamber Ensemble to play Canon in Kathy's classroom. The big day finally came, and there he was - standing outside Kathy's classroom, hands shaky, but smiling like there was no tomorrow. When the song was almost over, he entered the classroom and gave Kathy the flowers. They looked so cute! I sooo wanted to hug them both, but I had to be contented with peering through the window. haha! Cliff was still shaky after, but his smile was wider than ever. Aww! :)
I don't really know how to put all these feelings into words, but I'm just so happy for all of them. Sure, the happiness I feel is waaay different from theirs, because they actually have someone special in their lives, but it's great just seeing them so happy!
I wish every Valentine's Day would turn out like this, minus the "me having no special someone to share it with". haha!
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Jenn A.
Saturday, February 09, 2008, 4:23 PM
I've realized two important things over this past week. They may may not have gone as well as I had wanted them to, but constructive nonetheless.
First, recitation in OBLICON. Ever since the start of the school year, I've hated OBLICON because classes were from 6-7:30 and I'm dead terrified of our professor. There never was a time I didn't count the minutes until class was over and be thankful I wasn't called for recitation that day. This week, however, things were very, very different. I was finally called to recite last Tuesday and I couldn't say a thing because I didn't study at all. I was embarrassed in class - the feeling sucked big time. After class, I was pretty confident I wouldn't be called next meeting because I was already called. WRONG! I was called again, but I studied this time because of the emotional trauma the last meeting caused me. My answers in class weren't all that bad, and I was even surprised to be smiling during recitation. It's probably why I didn't mind that I was standing for almost and hour of recitation. Imagine that - a whole hour and I didn't even notice.
LESSON: Study. Smile and the whole class will smile with you.
The day after the whole OBLICON thing happened, I went to Ultra, but just to watch. It started off really well, until Joyce started to cry out her sentiments to me that evening. She cried about her stay in the team for she no longer found the reason to stay. Their coach might leave them for good (Coach Ramil's migrating to the States) and she'll lose most of her teammates to graduation. I get the feeling, but she shouldn't leave the team for those reasons alone - she'll only be upsetting herself in the end. She felt a lot better after our talk.
She may have started smiling again, but it was me who started feeling down. I started thinking about Alliv's leaving for New Zealand and how many of my teammates who'll graduate. I don't want to emphasize on Alliv's part, she already knows more than I can type. Diba dude? She's also the reason why I know the people who make training days special. Over the time I've been in the team, I've gotten to love each of them as though they were part of my family. I'd hate it of they started leaving me one by one. Leaving the team just because they did would be a really bad reason. I joined the team for no one else but myself, so I have to stick to my commitment even if it would mean journeying alone. But the thing is, I'll never be alone - that's the whole point of a team. Sure I won't be seeing a lot of my old friends, but I can always make new ones right?
LESSON: Make the most of the time I have left with my teammates, especially my best friend. There's nothing in the world as meaningful as a hug. Train in Ultra (not just watch) - I end up crying when I don't! haha...
Labels: drama, reality check
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Jenn A.
Friday, February 01, 2008, 3:09 PM
Let me tell you about my dear friend, Renan Joseph Manzano.
He was my batchmate back in our grade school days, but I never really got to know him until grade 6. We called him "Renan" back then. I remember our classmates in 6A calling him "black bird" and he'd just laugh along with them. He also used to be the one who'd make me feel better when I got picked on by bullies in class.
After our grade school graduation, we had no contact at all until the summer of 2005. We met again in Ahead - our review school for college. He introduced himself as "RJ" and after his introduction, I asked "Kelan ka pa naging RJ?!" and it was the start of a once again found friendship in that very long summer in Ahead. There was a time that I went to class with an eye patch. He noticed I had my hankey over my eye the whole time and asked if I was okay and if there was anything he could do to help. We'd aslo oftentimes kid around with our seatmates when we thought there was something funny about the lecturer. There was this one time where we had a lecturer who used his hand to erase the white board and then immediately rub his forehead. Just imagine how gusgusin he looked and how hard we were laughing when the lesson was over!
Once again I thought that would be the last time I'd see him, so I was really surprised to see him again in school. He was also part of Santugon, one of the student council parties in school. I jokingly asked him for his Santugon pin when I saw it pinned on his huge ID. He didn't give it to me, but he asked Carlos Medalla (running for one of the Reps) to give me one! haha... I saw him a lot around campus even after the campaigning and elections. It would oftentimes be an exchange of hi's and hello's because I'd usually see him in the ten minutes we were given to get to our next class. I saw him again, but didn't bother to say hi anymore because I was in a hurry. Little did I know that that would be the last.
At around 11 in the evening yesterday, I received an IM from a blockmate of mine asking if I knew RJ Manzano. I said I did, and what he said after that struck me - RJ had just passed away that Thursday morning.
At first I didn't make such a big fuss about it, but when I looked back on the times we've spent, I started feeling really sad. He died because of an aneurysm. He was operated on and was in a coma for two days, but... You fill in the blanks... *sobs*
Pambihira ka naman Renan, di ka man lang nagpaalam sa akin ng maayos. Kung kelan ko pa naisip na lagi na kitang makikita (di tulad ng graduation nung grade school), saka ka aalis. Salamat sa mga magagandang alaala, hinding-hindi ko talaga makakalimutan lahat ng pinagsamahan natin. Mamiss kita, sobra. Ikumusta mo ako kay James ah? Paki sabi sa kanya na miss ko na rin siya. Hanggang sa susunod nating pagkikita kaibigan!
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Jenn A.
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the life list
Here's a list of things I want to do with my life. Hopefully, I'll be able to make most of these happen. I'll add more things as I come up with ideas.
43 Things
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