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the wallflower
Wallflower (wall·flow·er)
Definition
- One who does not participate in the activity at a social event because of shyness or unpopularity.
- A lady at a ball, who, either from choice, or because not asked to dance, remains a spectator.
As the term suggests, I shy away from a lot of things, parties and balls/dances being top 1 and top 2 respectively.
I'm a small girl you won't probably notice in a crowd. On top of that, I'm a natural klutz, the holder of a seemingly record-breaking list of misplaced items, an amateur anything, and an over-thinker who oftentimes lets her head rule her heart.
I'm still normal okay, don't get me wrong. haha... I'm a kid at heart who is easily pleased with simple things. One who carries a pinch of optimism, a tinkling of charm, and loads of laughs. I'm still trying to find my place in this vast expanse, but I'm having tons of fun along the way.
I'll find that light someday, I'm sure! But for now, I'll slow things down a bit and enjoy the ride.
My life's not the most spectacular thing that you'll come across, but it's worth a look :)
my a-z
A aqua
B baking, books, broadway
C Canon 50D
D dancing, David Archuleta, DLSU, doodles, DS Lite
E E71, elephants
F fencing (foil), Filipina, Freeway
G GLEEk
H HTML/CSS
I -
J June 10
K Kamiseta, Kostka QC
L Latter-day Saint (Mormon), lime green
M Malteasers
N Nancy Drew, necklaces
O OC
P pasta, piano, Psychology major
Q Quezon City
R -
S See's Rum Nougat, shrimp, singing (theatrical amateur), single, sour candies, spicy food, Stitch
T taekwondo black belt, traveling, Trumpets Playshopper, turtles
U -
V -
W Walt Disney, Warheads, Wicked (the musical), white thick-rimmed glasses
X
Y -
Z Zours
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Thursday, March 11, 2010, 11:06 AM
I posted a note in Facebook last Tuesday which I set to be viewable to just me and a few well-trusted friends. We racked up a number of replies on it already. Then last night, I posted something on a friend's wall that was supposedly viewable to just the two of us.
When I logged in my brother's account that same night, however, I saw the post I just posted to my friend's wall a few minutes before I logged out. I deleted it hoping no one read it yet, and I just held my unreasonably crappy internet connection liable for not processing my privacy settings well.
Then this morning when I woke up, the first thing that entered my mind was the privacy settings issue I had last night and remembered the note I posted last Tuesday that made use of privacy settings. I rushed to my laptop and turned it on and when I logged in Facebook using my brother's account... Surprise, surprise! I saw the note I posted last Tuesday. *holds breath*
OH MY GOODNESS. I anticipated a panic attack at that very moment. The note was not supposed to be viewable to anyone else but the few friends I chose! What's up with the privacy settings?!
The paranoia. What if there were other people who saw it? Worse: what if the person in the note saw it?! Eh di alam na niyang crush ko siya. HE.MUST.NOT.KNOW! T.T
The positive uncertainty. Maybe he didn't read it. He probably doesn't check my wall anyway, so he might have not seen it. It might not even have appeared on his news feed, as the time I posted it is sort of the time when people are most active on Facebook. I hope so.
The pledge. DO NOT TRUST THE PRIVACY SETTINGS IN FACEBOOK IF IT'S A HIGHLY EXCLUSIVE STORY. That's what blogs are for. Only a few people read it, these few being really good friends.
From now on, no more posting secrets to Facebook.
Labels: oh noes
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Jenn A.
Tuesday, March 09, 2010, 3:14 PM
I'm still smiling. Nangangawit na panga ko! haha! Someone slap me please? :))
As much as I'd hate to admit it, I can't hide from myself the fact that the mere thought of the guy kinda makes me... Smile :D A lot! I fell asleep last night with a smile on my face, and this morning when I woke up, he entered my mind and I didn't even find the need to hit the snooze button on my alarm clock. More so, I've been doing things more enthusiastically, with a positive burst of energy too. Amazing. Feels greeeeeat!
I think I'm going nuts. hahaha
Labels: the crush files
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Jenn A.
Sunday, March 07, 2010, 1:43 PM
I finally admitted to myself just last Friday that maybeee I really do like this guy. Well, sort of. I'm not sure yet actually (okay, I'm not making sense anymore). He was never someone I thought I could ever crush on because he's a friend, but I do know that there a lot of qualities about him that I like, but not the person who possesses these qualities. Why the sudden change then? This all started as, guess what - A JOKE. Yes, a joke. Funny. I've been kidding around that I like this and that about him, then someone suddenly asked "Bakit di na lang siya yung crush mo?". I laughed it off actually, but when I got home, I thought about it and there. There was a weird, unexplainable feeling. The thought of me liking him made me laugh, but it made sense. A lot of it. Didn't help that I've rediscovered how much I love the song, He Brought Me To You, either. I just watched Stardust too (and I regret not watching it on the big screen by the way) yesterday, and it left me all giddy inside. heehee~ The cheesiness - not helping. haha! I told 3 friends about it because I could not contain myself any longer. Funny thing was they were able to tell who it was on the first try! I wonder what gave me away... Anyway. All three approve, but I don't think I want to agree just yet. We'll see, I mean. How am I? I FEEL AWESOME! Funnier thing - I've been smiling excessively since last Wednesday and there really is no way to describe the feeling. I was starting to think pa naman na hindi na ako marunong kiligin. Wrong! haha! What makes the feeling better is that I'm not even thinking about the guy not liking me and all that. It's not a problem at all! If he likes me too, then great, but if he doesn't, it's all good. I'm just enjoying the feeling while it lasts and while it still matters, no expectations attached. People do tend to overlook things that are already right in front of their eyes. That's the funniest thing of all - finally seeing the sense in something that once seemed vague and impossible. I've known this guy for a long time, but not once have I considered really liking him. Once you see past your biases and so-called "requirements" though, you'll see that you've been wasting time looking for something which you already had to begin with. Silly, right? There's the semi-crushing state for you: funny and flighty; uncertain yet satisfying. Overall great feeling, definitely one to cherish..♥ Labels: creative, the crush files
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Jenn A.
Tuesday, March 02, 2010, 11:41 PM
It's the middle of my last 3rd term in La Salle, and frankly, I'm glad that it'll be the last 3rd term I'll have to deal with. EVER. At around this time next year, I'll have graduated and will just be waiting for my visa so I can go to the Salt Lake with my parents. Just a month and a half left until it's over.
I'm glad that I'm nearly done with my undergrad degree, but even happier at the thought that 3rd term, specifically 3rd term, is almost over. Why? On top of the everyone-I-crush/ed-since-I-entered-college-is-gay curse, I also have a 3rd term curse. Every 3rd term since I entered college, I seem to have a problem with someone and a grueling battle with paranoia. No matter how smooth my relationships are with the person/s are in the 2nd term, something comes up out of the blue and leaves me in tears.
I can still feel the bitter pangs I had to endure in the past years, especially in 2007. Sadly, none of the broken ties were ever the same again... It was an org issue in my first year, a huge academic mistake in the second, complications with a significant other in the third, and now... It's starting. Something happened a few weeks back that has been resolved already, but there's another one in the making which I'm not even sure exists. See, the paranoia's getting to me already... It's awful to be in my shoes right now.
One thing I do realize out of all this is that I should keep my thoughts and my words to myself. Everything that happened to me could have been avoided if I did precisely that from the very start. I'm making the nightmare happen, so I'm the one who should prevent it from happening.
On the up side, IT'S ALMOST OVER. C'mon 1 month and a half, I can't wait! Labels: erase
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Jenn A.
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