Yes, I have been blogging quite regularly, but there are a lot of things on my mind right now that I refrained from posting until they're settled. I've blogged before about the little bet with a friend about a certain someone I have been in-like with for a year now. I'm still not telling what it is we bet about, but the deadline's been extended to December 25, 2008 (upon my friend's request).

Since then, the few who know about it have been asking me if I had already lost. I'd answer the same thing over and over, that nothing is happening and I'm winning that bet. I have always been so sure of my answer to this question, but never about the hypothetical one that would oftentimes follow - what I'd do if I lost. I'd shy away from it if the one who asked didn't push for and answer, but the answer would always be "I don't know" or "sana matalo ako para may challenge" on the rare occasion that I feel ridiculously hyper.

I seriously do not know what I'd do if I lost that bet. Also, I read my Friendster horoscope today just for laughs. Seeing "Whether you are prepared for it or not, you will finally get the challenge you have been itching for!" didn't help. The stars are wrong, and I don't think I'll be checking on my horoscope again any time soon. -__-;;

The opinions of the two dearest friends I have from Church are the closest thing I could picture out as the right thing to do, for they are the only two people who truly get how complex the situation is. I don't think my friends at school would understand it as much as Kat and Hazel do. Anyway, I was about to tell them something about the bet this morning after the second half of the general conference satellite broadcast when it seemed like the speaker was talking directly to me.

It was around 1 in the afternoon yesterday when I heard one of the most beautiful messages ever. I admit that I can't tell by face who the speaker was, but I bet I know him by name, at least. He talked about eternity and the lesser alternatives. I can't remember word per word what he said, but I do remember how clear my mind was of the whole bet thing after the talk. At that moment, it felt as though I'd have an easy answer to "what if you lose the bet?" - no, a frank "no". The advice Kat and Hazel gave me fell perfectly into place, and I'm thankful they said what they did.

I know that feelings like this might not last long, so I'm writing this now to in a way keep things fresh when I look back and read this. Though I still can't say for sure what I'd do if (take note, if) I lose the bet, I know I'd be more confident of the answer I'm supposed to give. I'll post the talk here when I get a copy of it so you can have a look at it too :)