Hello. I've been really, really upset about something that happened this week. I've never been this mad in my life. Now look, I'm going to be a little mean in this entry, so if you're a fan of peace and forgiveness, don't continue reading.

I'll tell you what happened first. My comments will follow.

There's this guy who I've known since my early teens. In those teeny bopper days, there was a time that he pulled me to the dance floor and I refused. I also remember the most vile discriminatory comment I have ever heard his friends tell him about me - "mayaman yan, di yan papatol sa 'yo". I HATED his friends for saying such. I hated him even more for being affected. Since then, there's been this wall that I couldn't seem to break. Heck, I wasn't even sure if I wanted to break it at all. We didn't talk anymore after that.

After a few years of no talking, however, we started talking again. We talked, but rarely (and I mean rarely). I thought we were okay, friends and all, but we never became close friends. Civil.

Then just recently, he asked for my number, so I gave to him. I knew him enough anyway. There was this time that he used a common friend's phone to call me up. Malas lang niya, I was really busy at that time, so I told him to give the phone to our friend and I told my friend that I was not in the mood to talk because I had a lot of things to do. I thought it was over and done with, but then the guy sends me a text telling me that he's sorry he called, not to get mad at him or our friend, and that he'll erase my number from his phone. I replied explaining that I tend to get cranky under pressure, and I'm sorry for that. It was really my mistake, after all. I also told him that I found it rude for him to delete my number just because of that - that was just too exaggerated. I got mad, yes, but I let it go. He apologized again, but I didn't reply anymore.

So does it end there? Unfortunately, no.

These past two weeks, an unknown number texts me and tells me that he knows me. I knew he did because he knew my name. I was too intrigued not to reply. Then the guy tells me he's a member of our Church, that he's close to me and a common friend, and that he has always liked me. He also asked if I believed him. Of course I said I didn't - I didn't even know who this person was, why in the world would I believe him (hello?!). He also told me that he's going to ask me to dance on the night of the YSA on November 7. I told him that I don't dance socially, just for presentations. This was a lie of course, but wouldn't you lie too if you were creeped-out by an unknown peson who is warning you that'll he/she will ask you to dance in advance? I had a suspicion who this guy was, but I had second thoughts because the guy's number is registered in my phone. He might have changed his number, I thought. This guessing game went on for two weeks until he started telling me things like "pag nakikita kita laging magkasalubong kilay mo" (friends, is this true?) and "nagsusungit ka na eh". I was like, the heck?! I replied with:


He didn't tell me who he was and dropped clues instead, so I stuck to my word and didn't reply. I was getting tired of guessing, too. Besides, I didn't think I wanted to find out who this person was anymore. I did intend that text to be a snobbish one, by the way. Then another number starts texting me claiming that she is a friend of Mr. Unknown. I got irritated, seriously. One was enough, two was just too much. She kept calling me, but I don't answer mainly because I was in a meeting, and two, I didn't know her. She later on tells me the name of Mr. Unknown. So, my hunch was right all along - it was *insert name here*.

I didn't reply to the texts of either of them and I didn't answer their calls. Then the guy texts me:


I was like, uhh okay. Bahala ka sa buhay mo.


So here's what I think about all this:


I confused being civil with being friends. We were never friends, only civil to each 0ther. Mere acquaintances. You have known me by face and by name, that's all. You do not base real friendship on those grounds. And where did you get the highly fallacious assumption that we're close?! Some imagination you have there. Wag ka nang mag-ilusyon. We were NEVER close nor were you my friend, for your information. A friend would never do this to me. And after you pulled off this stupidity, we won't ever be. Live with it. Let me repeat, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND.

Being labeled as "masungit" or "suplada" isn't new to me and I don't need you to tell me that AGAIN. I get enough of that from the people in other wards. If not for my friends, I would have believed you people and pitied myself. Thankfully, I have the greatest people in the world to boost my confidence - highly unlike the people you call friends (if you get my point). I don't care what you and your kind think of me. You don't know a thing about me anyway. Oh wait, you know that I am rich and that those "below" me don't stand a chance *rolls eyes in sarcasm*. Pfft. LOSER! As long as the people who matter would stand in defense of me, you could tell anyone something foul against me like enjoying the fresh smell of garbage and I still wouldn't care. Really, what were you thinking? I deal with the worst kind of garbage - people like you. And you don't hear me complaining about it.

So what if you're a member (of our Church)?! I DON'T FRIGGIN' CARE. I wouldn't think any more or less of a person if we had the same or totally contradicting religions. What matters to me (and I believe to everyone as well) is how you treat the people around you. If you're nice to me, you're fine in my book. But you?! YOU ARE NOT IN IT. You are not even worthy of being a speck of dust in it. And as for your friends, did any of you even try to get to know me before labeling me with "suplada" or "mayaman"? Of all the kinds of jerks there are in this world, it's those false judges I hate the most. In other words, you AND your friends are in my hate list.

You do not assume AND tell someone you like that he/she is irritated by you. In your case, you implied it in your messages. To me, this would only mean that you look at me as one who has temper problems. Do I even need to explain how wrong that is? You know you're pissing someone off, so just reverse what you're doing. But do you do it? No, you don't. Hindi ka na nagpadala.

Ang cheap ng approach mo. What's more irritating about your assumptions is that I warned you that I wasn't liking the whole guessing game thing, and you continue to do it. That and your approach as a whole are disturbing. Though I had a hunch who you were, I wasn't sure. You go telling me that you'll ask me to dance and that you like me. Hello?! Didn't you think that that's just freaky? And on top of that, through text?! Oh my, how utterly romantic *rolls eyes*. You must be deranged to think this would appeal to me. And while we're on the topic about your approach, you tell me AGAIN that you'll "eraze" my number from your phone. Nagpapakonsensya ka ba ha? Because if that's what you're trying to do, it's not working. It only aggravated my hated towards you even more. And while we're at it, ayusin mo nga yung pagtetext mo! Ang hirap intindihin.

You do not want to upset or disappoint me. Anger will eventually die down, but once you've upset or disappointed me, I don't think you'll EVER rank higher than "dedma". But think of it this way, at least you're in the better ranks of these great *rolls eyes* people. At least I didn't label you "loser" or "jerk". See? I'm NICE *insert sarcasm here*. Oh and as a bonus, I'm mad at you too. So you made me mad AND you upset me. Sweeeeet *rolls eyes*.

You need help. Go see a guidance counselor or something. An attitude trainer too while you're at it.


PLEASE, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE IF YOU WILL CONTINUE WITH THIS IDIOCRICY YOU CALL YOUR ATTITUDE. I've had enough of you. I can't believe I'm saying this, but you are by far the worst person I've ever met. You and the other guy who did the awful texting thing to me too last summer (you're him part 2). You have been a bigger source of anger than the person who used to bully me a lot in high school. I don't want to see your face that turns sunny skies gray either. You'd brew up a storm if you try to talk to me, so don't. Not now. So if you don't want this storm to involve hail stones I's like very much to throw at you right now, LEAVE ME ALONE.

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I honestly want to kick dirt on this obnoxious git's face right now. Oh wait, why not just kick his face? Right now, it wouldn't be wise of him to show himself to me. But if he continues to be stupid, mapapahiya lang siya. He'd better not dare.

Imagine me getting so mad about this, how much more if it were my boyfriend? haha...